Okay, lets take a break from the illness and talk about something incredible. First let me say – I am such a huge believer of “you get what you give in the world” I think good things will happen to good people. Over the last nine months my life has just been insane and one constant has been my now boyfriend, Nathaniel Johnson. I’m not sure if I can truly convey to people what an incredible human he is. It seems like since the day we met, he has just seen my life firsthand, and what a series of unfortunate events it can be. I knew he was different from the moment I laid eyes on him – There you were across the dark room, in the flash of the strobe lights, Whitney Houston singing in the background. All I knew in that first moment we locked eyes was that I wanted to dance with somebody, and that somebody was you. Your black button up shirt, undone too low, but too cool to care. That messy bun on top of your head. Even before I knew you, I knew I was in for trouble.
Falling in love was never something either of us intended to do. He was leaving on a ten month cycling trip across the United States and neither of us were trying to step into a new relationship, ESPECIALLY a long distance one? Are you kidding me? But we all know love can be a funny thing. After knowing each other for a whole two months we began our travels together. Seems crazy but it just wasn’t. I’ve never known someone with such a sense of adventure and I swear its just contagious! He makes me want so much more than I ever thought was possible. He makes me believe in things like finding a cure for lupus – something I had never even considered before I met you. I know dealing with this isn’t just hard on me, but also on you. Things were easy, fun, light… we were having a blast and seeing the world together. It seemed perfect. The months flew by, before we knew it October had come and gone. (Meaning Nathaniel got to experience my favorite holiday – Halloween – with me) We were starting into the holidays, Thanksgiving came and then so did the wildfire. On November 28th, 2016 a fire raged through the city I have called home to my entire life. Gatlinburg, Tennessee. This post is not about the fire, however I’m sure it will come up – another day – another blog post. For now I want to focus on Nathaniel. After the fires he saved my life, and I don’t say that lightly. I didn’t know if I was ever going to be the same person again and he pulled me from the trenches and truly saved me and I will be forever grateful to him for that. At any point he could have walked away, but he never did. He literally brought me back to life. Even more than that, with my disease he has never even flinched at the crazy things that go on with my body. He’s never been grossed out or made me feel embarrassed about any of it. He has NEVER made me feel bad about my disease. I literally cannot put into words what an amazing man that he really is. He is so encouraging and supportive, even in my deepest and darkest of times. He has been there for me in a way that no man ever has. It is hard for me to understand what I have done to deserve him. He is literally something that girls dream of all their lives and somehow I’m lucky enough to be loved by this incredible human!! It gives me butterflies and blushed cheeks.
Today Nathaniel and his brother Matthew are halfway through the cycling trip I mentioned before. But with one tweak, shortly after the guys left I had my first and second surgery; knocking on death’s door, yet again. These two AMAZING brothers called me to say they had decided to support the Lupus Research Alliance as their main charity in this event. Neither of them were familiar with this disease. Neither of them had ever been affected by it before. Yet here they were, supporting something that is so very important to me. I will forever be indebted to these to for their efforts to find a cure for this awful disease. Beers N Bikes will hold a special place in my heart forever.
6,000 miles for a cure – http://www.beersnbikes.com
Nathaniel, we have the ability to grow something so beautiful, you make me want to be the very best version of me possible. Our future is filled with so much light and laughter and happiness and family and love and TRAVEL. I can’t wait to see the world with you, Scruffy. I love you. Thank you for everything, and everything ❤